It seems strange, but i have been back in NH for about 24 hours and I already have two employment positions open to me. I have been keeping busy, unpacking, dividing things up for charity, organizing where new things and old things and exist happily together...it's mostly just busy work to keep me focused on something other than being sad though. I feel like people look at me and I don't "seem sad" so I must have been an awful girlfriend and a cold hearted bitch but I swear I am not. I am wierd with my emotions in the first place and then this has been such a long and drawn out process that i feel tired of crying by now, eventhough it is still new.
At the same time, I have never really been on my own, and Mike hasn't been for a long time so I am trying to look at this as a positive for both of us. Maybe new scenery will be good, help us grow and become our own seperate people and not just half of a couple, sometimes I feel like I am not really my own whole person yet...
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