Heavens to Betsy!

Ok so.... epic fail

The wedding I was attempting to get fit for came and went. I was as confident as I could pretend to be but now I am furious about my lack of commitment to my lifestyle change....I see the photos from the wedding and I am embarrassed about how my arms look and the sheer difference in how I look compared to LITERALLY everyone else. I am not proud of it, I come off as pretty confident but its easy to say you feel big beautiful sexy and confident so avoid admitting you feel gross on a daily basis.

I have help this time. Shawn and I are joining a gym together, I do not have a ridiculous time frame, I do not have a program too intense for me to keep up with, its just me trying to be more healthy. I have photos i am going to print off my computer that are particularly unflattering to remind me to stay focused and head-stronge. I want to be successful this time

GET FIT DAMN IT!

OK, I have finally decided to get the hell out of my fat, lazy routine. I hate my size, i hate feeling winded, I hate being in doorways with someone because I always feel like I take up more space than everybody else does. I hate the way people look at me in restaurants. I don't like dirt looks for ordering a regular soda. I don't like the constant worry that I am going to be heavy and unhealthy for the rest of my life! I am scared that I will get stuck in this body...

That seems like a lot to unload on a blog, it seems like a bit of too much information, BUT i am excited to announce that I am soon to begin a Kettle Worx workout system. A true body changing, life changing point in my life! I wrote this all out to
remind myself, when i start getting tired, bored, frustrated, with this set-up, this is the reason I need to stick to it! I ordered
the program on Friday and it is supposed to be mailed in 7-10 days.

http://www.kettleworx.com/

I cant wait to start!
I cant wait to feel strong, excited, powerful